My dear

who was I, but a twisted soul?

you found me there, dying in all of my hopes.

you gave everything you had

to turn my gloom into gold.

and i almost stop

but i can't be the better man.

will you ever forgive me?

i know i'll never see what you see.

the guilt revolves in my body still

i can't be the picture you paint of me,

and you can't save us all.

i wonder what would you think of me now?

you're too mad to come for me?

i still wait for you, patiently.

you were so magnetic naturally

and your charisma could light up the darkest of rooms

i felt like i didn't belong

i wish i could see you just one more time

i care so much and i don't know why

your name keeps resonating my mind

you said the look in my eyes was like a perfect lie

but they will love you for a whole lifetime.

you knew i would try to run away

as i knew you wouldn't try to stop me.

deep inside i was afraid

because i was loved

maybe you could've been my savior,

but i couldn't easily accept something i never deserved.